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Friday, October 22, 2010
I'm not ready for this
I have really enjoyed my time off from work recovering from delivery and taking care of my adorable little Elliot. But alas, my 4 weeks of maternity leave is up on Monday and I must return to work. I wish I didn't have to. I would much rather stay at home and continue to take care of and enjoy my son. But circumstance don't allow for that, and as I make more than Nate does, and I carry the insurance, I must, for now, work full time. But even the thought of me having to go 8 hours without him is causing quite a bit of anxiety for me. Every time I think about it I find myself fighting back the tears. How am I going to do this? For those mothers out there who work outside the home (especially new mothers), how do you cope with leaving them for so long during the day? I'm also nervous about Nate taking care of him. I know that he will be okay, but I'm still nervous because Nate is nervous about it, especially about changing diapers. I know that I really don't have anything to worry about. Both of them will be fine, but I still don't like the fact that I have to be without both of them for 8 hours. Oh, I just want to hold him tight and cry and keep wishing with all my might that this weekend lasts forever and that Monday never comes ............. at least for a little longer.
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I wont sugar coat it Angie.. it is hard, harder than anything I had to do. It gets easier! take pictures to work with you. I took one of his onsies with me my first two weeks just so that I could smell my little guy.
Nate will do great with Elliot, He'll get over the nervousness. Just remind him often that he can do this.
Hey Angie. It's Mary from the other side of your building. :)
I had to go back to work 2 weeks after I had Sammie. I had a job offer that I HAD to take, and this is when training happened to start. This was honestly in the top 5 hardest decisions ever.
I ended up putting her with a babysitter who lived 2 blocks from my work. I spent my breaks pumping in the bathroom, and my lunches were spent at the babysitters, nursing my baby. That babysitter didn't last long, but it sure helped me make the transition a little easier.
Just know that as bad as this sucks right now, things will slowly start to get easier.
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